thanks Alex!
I started my week awfully so I can’t control myself by ending it awfully too. For me, my week ends on Thursdays because I only have classes till Thursdays. This day! So am planning to end it by going to the adoration chapel on our church here. I haven’t been there for several months now and I have a lot of things to tell Him. I started cutting classes last Monday, and I also cut class last Tuesday and yesterday and now, I just cut class. I have 3 classes left for this day and one is the catechist. And guess what? I don’t feel like showing up on those! I know my students will be waiting or will be looking for me later but as of now, I don’t have conscience. Am such a bad ass!
I was with my friend Alex yesterday. I missed hanging out with her so when I saw her, instead of going in the class (which I was headed to), I invited her out. We hang out at Gaisano, eat our hearts out and just catch up. I was really happy yesterday; I was able to tell someone about what I have been going though lately. It’s nice to know that no matter how shitty you get, you can have someone to just sit with you and listen. Alex felt me. But she just stayed quiet and told me “Kaya mo yan sis, kaw pa! You’ve been through a lot and am not gonna start telling you on what you should do or what you should not. Kasi alam ko na kaya mo and you know what to do!” I was really happy hearing those words from her. It is such a relief. Someone here still believes in me. As a return, I treat her manggang hilaw with bagoong! *yum* (that’s our favorite snack) and I went with her at her place and we started laughing about the things we usually do last semester. We talked about our friend, Grichelle and she just gave birth with his son and we were talking about going to Calamba and see our inaanak. This would be very fun and an adventure! None of us have been there since. *laughs*
Each and every girl could say that any guys are good at disappearing. They are good at running away from things that they don’t want to deal with. What motivates them to disappear? As a girl, I can’t answer that. But I know that they are not man enough to prove and deal with what they put themselves in to.
Girls can disappear too. It’s not that they don’t want to deal with what they put themselves in to, but it’s the only solution left and they don’t have a choice but disappear!